I think I am currently consumed by thoughts of London, even though my arrival is a year and some months away. It's a touchy subject still with things and people here I would rather not leave, and I'm even afraid of writing about it because what if it doesn't actually happen.
London Fashion Week is wrapping up. I walk around DC and see glimpses of London that I remember from my time there. Flashes of the city's lights, buildings and city corners.
I have no delusions of what life will be like when I get there. There is no posh apartment waiting for me, possibly a student dorm. Money will be tight, and between school and working for some a little money I'll be very busy. But that there is a new life waiting for me elsewhere excites me...
Does me being excited mean that I'm ready to leave my life behind, leave String Bean behind? Does it mean that I shouldn't put more effort into finishing my apartment or continuing my life here? Is it possible to look ahead too much and forget that you have a life you're living now? "What's it all about Alfie? Is it just for the moment we live?"
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Song du jour: "Alfie"- Dionne Warwick
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It's Party Time
1 day ago
8 comments:
There is nothing wrong with you being happy. Just be cognizant of both of your feelings. This is a HUGE opportunity for you. If he loves you he will be happy for you. Of course, he may not be happy for himself because of what may happen, but you never know, it may be you who is all twisted up in the game once you move... he might pick up and move one with his life before you do. Life is funny like that.
Good luck.
Alfie is so appropriate, remind me to sing it to you the next time i see you. Whats it all about... Joey?
NB
I've been to London. I think you will like it, although the weather my get to you after a while.
My sweet child is leavin',,,Awwwwwww Laaaaaawwwwwd!
I'm jealous, bitch.
Noooo dont leave ;(....well b4 you dipo off we all gotta get up ASAP homie
I think that you should not let the opportunities of today be overshadowed by the possibilities of tomorrow. Don't make an early exit just because you know that you're going somewhere else later. I think that you should try to take in as much more of your DC life as you can, and if and when it is time to leave, take those experiences with you. As Michael Novotny quoted his mother on Queer as Folk, "If you've got on foot in tomorrow and one in yesterday, you'll shit on today." :)
I saw your comment and thank you so much for your thoughts, I appreciate it.
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