My Head and Heart are at war. The battle rages on fiercely in my gut where cannon blasts and clashing swords make for an uneasy battle ground. Frantically, I search for a truce of some sort...but the stakes are too high and both parties have claimed their position. One says stay, the other says go...
My Heart is brave and hopeful..."This is love," he says "...you never let love die." He believes his cause is just...he fights in defense of the most precious beauty. Nine months of history...the things we've built and they future we've seen...everything and what we've become...my Heart will not let these things fall victim to my Head.
Judicious and shrewd, the Head plans for what he knows is inevitable. He advances against the Heart with good intentions...to spare the Heart itself from greater pain and suffering. Logic gives the Head it's purpose...why hold on until the end when you know you'll take separate paths. Behavior will change, the relationship will become stagnant...the only thing that's grown to be ended is cattle for slaughter...
The arguments fall into formation...the clash is brutal and wild...
As the heat of the civil war erupts, I am drawn thin with confusion and a schizophrenia ensues...my Head is splitting, my Heart aches and I can find no refuge within. Will I allow love to perish or will logic be laid to waste...a simple "yes" or "no" is left to the Mouth to decide...
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Been there. Trust me. Like...I've sooooo been there. If you're at all interested in how this story ends, the head prevails while the heart simply deals with it.
Sorry if I ruined it for anybody.
I think that you should enjoy it for as long as you can. Just because you know something good will end is no reason to avoid having any good at all. If at the end of your time together you still want to be with him, a new solution may have arisen. I think that you should not cut your joy short for fear of pain, you'll miss out on a lot of good times that way. And from the things you write on here, it doesn't sound like saying goodbye at this point means saying goodbye forever.
yup Mr. Jones is right,logic will
win over matters of the heart...
just the way it goes...
dont cry(least someone will see it)
smile to much...because the outward
strength will show others what a
survivor you are...right manchild
WHEW - you're writing the hell outta these posts these days sir!
I say take a moment and think it through. Rash thinking and decision making almost always ends with regret. You're a smart chap. Very intelligent. I have no doubt that in the end Mr. Gaskins Jr. will have made the right choice.
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